Sonoma County Trip

Wait and Pray

When life starts rolling and you make decisions that will effectively change your life, you don't want to have to wait on answers from other people who are in the process of making decisions that will effectively change their lives. But that's just it, isn't it? A chain of events will now occur that have little to do with the decision you have to make, except that they have everything to do with the decision you are making. This is exactly why we pray, meditate, reflect, ask and hope. Holding faith in our hands like an egg - careful not to hold it too tight or let it fall. So now, I'm praying, dare I say, asking, for God to guide all the decision makers in the line of decisions that effect mine. Guide them in the perfect way they need to be guided for my dreams to unfold. I know this will all happen they way it's supposed to - because I'm here and I've asked. The beautiful thing is that life is beginning to roll. It's gathering moss and I'm ready for the ride. There will certainly be challenges along the way that will change the course of the journey. But the journey is clear and I am determined. I know now, more than ever that Bob and I are ready for the adventure and together we will make it all happen. However it takes shape. Although the shape we really like at the moment is the shape of California and the Sonoma Coast. With a seller financed wine and gift retail business and Sissy Made It covering all the costs and then some of the purchasing of the business. It's really not out of reach at all! Just around the corner really. We also really like the idea of our house selling within a couple of months at the price we need it to. And so the decisions will continue to be made and we will wait and pray. Focusing our dreams and planning our strategy. Rethinking and revising along the way. Growing together and learning about each other. This is the real journey.

The Tenth Man (a work in progress)

Nine out of ten people will stand at the locked door on the front of a building. The tenth man will walk around to the back to see if there is another way in. I think my life is about being the tenth man. Today, it's almost a necessity to go against the grain, take the risks that others won't and do what they say can't be done. It's definitely more fun. Or, should I say, more adventurous. The stress levels are higher, in a good way. Since we started this "let's move across the country to buy a wine shop" project, my husband and I are moving along the same path for the first time and it feels really good. We are able to have conversations and discussions without arguing, our sex life is much better. It must have something to do with following a dream. Being happy just in the pursuit of happiness - is that the key? I don't know if the negotiations will result in an actual move, but we are on to something. I like being the tenth man. I find myself looking for ways to be different, or differentiate myself and my husband from the rest of the pack. Looking at our life and liking it - not wanting more...but wanting less and getting more. To move across the country, literally from the Atlantic to the Pacific, must take some certain kind of moxy. We will have to sell most of what we own, just to be able to afford the trip out. Maybe we can convince my parents to pull a second trailer behind their car with the other half of what we need! I've always thought myself an entreprenuer and I wonder if I fit the behavioral tendencies of the great entreprenuers of our time? I do have a hard time trying to figure out how to handle hiring and firing. I tend to latch on to whoever says they are available to do stuff. Then those that need to move on have to figure that out for themselves - I don't want to be mean. I'm learning that business is just business and it's not personal. Hard lesson when it really is personal to me.