all the knowledge in the world

Even if I had time to read and learn about all the social networking and such that ones needs to be an expert on, would I really want to spend all my time working at it? What would I really do with all that knowledge? I want to write and have people enjoy my writing. I'm not going to be the source of expertise on anything, although I have an opinion on most things and would happily share. I could come up with an entirely new concept and be the expert on that. I could just state that I'm an expert at something I like to do and then people want to hear what I have to say. That's what happens on the news everyday. The "experts" they find for network news are something else!

Making Changes

Change is good, right? I mean, it's inevitable for sure. So embracing it can only be a good thing. I think the fear of what the change will bring is the hardest part. If I make this decision, and something that I don't want happens, then it was making the decision that is to blame. Or maybe, what happens after the change is decided on would have happened regardless. It's better to be on the decisive end and not on the allowing end. I like being in control and at lease if I make the decision to change, then I'm the only one responsible.

On another note, I wonder if anyone ever reads this blog. If you've made it through the first paragraph and I've still got your attention, I'd love to know!

Sunday Morning

I'm spending this morning like I spend every Sunday morning. On the couch, a cup of hot tea in hand and the show "Sunday Morning" replaying from the 6am dvr recording. In my not so crazy life, I often complain there are no consistencies, not much discipline to stick to tasks and stay focused. And I've just realized that this mundane weekly activity of mine is about as consistent as any one could ask for. I can build on this. I can. Every year I say I'm going to write daily. It hasn't happened yet. That I'm going to stay on top of my responsibilities and not wait till the last minute to get things done. I still do all my bookkeeping for the past year in a week in March just in time for taxes to be due.

As I make the list above, I realize, consistency may be at the heart of my problem - the consistency of doing things the same way, week after week, year after year. And not the way I want to do them. Do we really have the power to change? Can I create new consistencies that more closely resemble the life I want to lead? Or am I leading the life I'm meant to have and should be happy with? Either way, I have a lot of work to do and should stop writing and get it done. ;-)